Ableism

This is my second attempt at writing about ableism. The first one I wrote received ableist feedback, ironically. I'll try to keep this one simple and concise. The world is ableist by default. This is simply because most people are not autistic. So the way society operates tends to suit neurotypicals, but not autists. Any …

Writing and Autism

From the point of view that writing, and more broadly an interest in English, is a special interest of mine I think I will stop soon. The problem is I'm not sure that I'm a very good writer, in an objective sense. Technically proficient, sure, but because of autism the awareness of social subtleties required …

Sexual Frustration

It's the most difficult thing about being demisexual. I can't have sex with anyone I'm not emotionally connected with. Full stop. Theoretically, if I have a random encounter with a woman that leads to the clothes coming off, I could have sex with her if we had instant chemistry. But even then, without the time …

Winter in Australia

(Gold Coast, Queensland.)

Writing Anxiety

As much as writing is cathartic for me. As much as it's a special interest I don't want to let go of. Someone from Australia keeps randomly viewing multiple posts on my blog and it just worries me. What they're doing with the information. I've been conspired against before, in terms of my writing and …

I don’t want to be autistic anymore

Light. Noise. Talking to people. Capitalism. Religion. Conflict. Hypocrisy. Injustice. I can't take it anymore. The worst thing is the insomnia. I'm so tired, but I can't sleep. I get like this on a monthly basis or even more often and I can't function. Bad memories. Full expectation of more bad memories to come. I …

Autism Late Diagnosis

Scratched DVDs

Disability is marginalising. Financially, socially, in every way. I can work, but work involves social and sensory stimuli that can leave me periodically crippled. I'm currently applying for the disability support pension, but unless I can convince the government that I'm disabled enough, I won't receive it. The alternative is the job seeker welfare payment. …

Autistic Addiction Recovery

My recommendation is that you don't go to rehab and don't do AA/NA meetings. Your particular experience of being on the spectrum might make you capable of using such services and methods. However, as a cautionary tale, I'm still sober but carrying a lot of trauma from trying to participate in recovery more suited for …

Writing Now

Enjoying reading and writing has been a lifelong pursuit of mine. In hindsight it was one of my earliest "special interests". Now, since being diagnosed as autistic, my mind turns to whether I should stop. It's a daunting prospect. I feel like I should keep writing. Whether I ever get paid for it again is …