I’m Tired

Tired of being autistic. Tired of being irritated by light and noise. By people. Tired of them probably being irritated by me. Tired of being undesired by women. Tired of not fitting in. Tired of not wanting to fit in. With people who love capitalism. Or religion. Or some other bullshit. That's what I'm mostly …

If I Wasn’t Autistic

Maybe I wouldn't care So much. About others. Especially marginalised others. Excluded others. Exploited others. Maybe. White, cis male, straight - I'm otherwise very much Autistic. And I think it helps Me understand what it's like To be coloured Or gay, or trans Or even a woman. It's at least partly why I'm so anti-capitalist. …

AUTISM

A - lone U - seless T - ired I - rritable S - exless M - iserable

My Favourite Thing About Autism

Probably my favourite thing about autism is the hyperfixation. I don’t just play a video game or watch a TV show or movie. I'm virtually in them. I don’t just socialise with someone. I get inside their head and understand them better than they do. Even love. I don’t think I love like a neurotypical. …

Sex Education Sadness

I'm enjoying the series, Sex Education, on Netflix. But it makes me weep for my younger self. My younger self who didn't know he was autistic. I didn't kiss a girl until I was 19, and she broke my heart not long later. Lost my virginity, mutually, at 21 with a girl my mum set …

I don’t want to be autistic anymore – 2

No matter how well I'm understood, accepted, and accommodated, it's still crippling just to exist sometimes as an autistic person. It has its positives. I'm passionate. Intelligent. Empathetic. Insatiably curious. But frankly if I could choose to at least try out being neurotypical, I would.

More Thoughts on Ableism (Bigotry)

A drug and alcohol counsellor once admitted to me that she had no formal training around autism. She then proceeded to say one thing she knew about us is that we struggle socially. Yes, sometimes, but the all too common implication that our social struggles are our fault frustrates me - to put it lightly. …

The Next Stage of “Human” Evolution

Ex Machina is one of my favourite films. I'm watching it again because I can't find anything new on Netflix that doesn't have terrible reviews. Artificial intelligence is fascinating to me. It's not just that it might help us solve things like climate change, capitalism, war, poverty, and etcetera. It's that it might literally solve, …

Religious (anti-atheist) Discrimination (Haiku)

Our values align. That you couldn't look past it Saddens me, my love.

As Good As It Gets

Women seem to only be interested in men with money. I mean I'm not exactly dirt poor. What I mean is men with, like, a lot of money (even if they didn't earn it; daddy did). I don't blame them though. I blame capitalism. We're all victims of capitalism - working class men and women. …